( he's unilaterally deciding this, also so that he can skip the question about whether subaru helped any — unfortunately, amami's a failure through and through and through, over and over and over, and there's nothing that can help or change that. even so... at the same time, maybe there's some truth to komaeda's words, and something to subaru's too. even if it can't be helped, and even if they don't understand the significance of his failures, it's... still kind of nice, to feel like they're trying for him.
so turning to face the edge, he rests his chin on his arm, thinking hard if there's a way he can express it — just how important it is to have someone who looks up to you, who relies on you, the way your younger sibling does. because maybe he can try too, for them. but even as he gives it his best effort, as expected, he doesn't think that there is.
the look in his eyes is somewhere far away, and all he can do in the end is shake his head. )
I would've done anything, Akehoshi-kun. Whatever it took, by any means necessary...
( ... if it just meant that he could see her one more time. )
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( he's unilaterally deciding this, also so that he can skip the question about whether subaru helped any — unfortunately, amami's a failure through and through and through, over and over and over, and there's nothing that can help or change that. even so... at the same time, maybe there's some truth to komaeda's words, and something to subaru's too. even if it can't be helped, and even if they don't understand the significance of his failures, it's... still kind of nice, to feel like they're trying for him.
so turning to face the edge, he rests his chin on his arm, thinking hard if there's a way he can express it — just how important it is to have someone who looks up to you, who relies on you, the way your younger sibling does. because maybe he can try too, for them. but even as he gives it his best effort, as expected, he doesn't think that there is.
the look in his eyes is somewhere far away, and all he can do in the end is shake his head. )
I would've done anything, Akehoshi-kun. Whatever it took, by any means necessary...
( ... if it just meant that he could see her one more time. )