[a double reason why amami seems so content with little gestures too; even if they're small, they're something, and subaru draws circles with his finger. always fidgeting, always moving.]
No matter when or where, I'll find you, just like I'll find everyone else. Natsume, Lena, Maddy... Keigo. All of you.
[so they can have their christmas every year, birthdays and new years and every other holiday in the mix -- together. it's a promise in all but the word.]
I totally get parents being busy, though~. Dad was an idol like me, [he's pretty sure he's mentioned this, even in passing, because it's something he tells everyone,] so I didn't get to see him a lot. Holiday seasons are super busy especially for people like us!
[try as he might, the possibility of getting off wasn't always high. he thinks of the starlight festival, how it takes place across the christmas days, and then of the SS finals immediately following in full on new years; it started in november, just after halloween, and
it sounds exhaustive laid out, but subaru misses it so much, how excited he'd been day after day being worn to the bones doing something he loved. he closes his eyes and sighs, somewhere between happy and something else. lonely, maybe.]
Mom told me he would always try his best though, even if it didn't always work out, but I don't remember most of the years... He passed away when I was pretty young, we started moving around a lot, and then Mom started working when she got back on her feet, too. It's nice having someone that gets it, even a little~.
[even if it's not exact, it's like how makoto has the same household set-up he does. a single mother, an only son, both who want to do what they can to make sure their only family left doesn't kill themselves working. subaru finds it easy to talk and connect with others who're like him in some way, but it's harder still to look at people when he offers up pieces of himself like this.]
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No matter when or where, I'll find you, just like I'll find everyone else. Natsume, Lena, Maddy... Keigo. All of you.
[so they can have their christmas every year, birthdays and new years and every other holiday in the mix -- together. it's a promise in all but the word.]
I totally get parents being busy, though~. Dad was an idol like me, [he's pretty sure he's mentioned this, even in passing, because it's something he tells everyone,] so I didn't get to see him a lot. Holiday seasons are super busy especially for people like us!
[try as he might, the possibility of getting off wasn't always high. he thinks of the starlight festival, how it takes place across the christmas days, and then of the SS finals immediately following in full on new years; it started in november, just after halloween, and
it sounds exhaustive laid out, but subaru misses it so much, how excited he'd been day after day being worn to the bones doing something he loved. he closes his eyes and sighs, somewhere between happy and something else. lonely, maybe.]
Mom told me he would always try his best though, even if it didn't always work out, but I don't remember most of the years... He passed away when I was pretty young, we started moving around a lot, and then Mom started working when she got back on her feet, too. It's nice having someone that gets it, even a little~.
[even if it's not exact, it's like how makoto has the same household set-up he does. a single mother, an only son, both who want to do what they can to make sure their only family left doesn't kill themselves working. subaru finds it easy to talk and connect with others who're like him in some way, but it's harder still to look at people when he offers up pieces of himself like this.]