Yeah, I am.

[kind, stupid, going to a god, reversing it, paying with something just as steep--]

I'm gonna give it a shot, but... please, Maddy, believe me when I say I'm not using the life I have right now as the fee, not like what Keigo did. I won't make them any sadder then they're gonna be whenever I have to go, be it at graduation or the year after if I ask to stay just a little longer.

[but maybe graduation'll be kinder; he doesn't know how he'll be after that day, mizuki's question ringing in his ears and the reply he'd given to the man being words everyone had always described him as, words he took to heart each time,

but who is subaru akehoshi without the very memories that shaped him?

would he still be kind? would he still take risks for others? would he be bright and smiling and a star for others to follow, or was all of that just him trying to fill in shoes far too big for him left by a father who died too soon?]

It's foolish and stupid and I'm not expecting anyone who finds out to be on board with it, but it's what I can and will offer for their future.