[he chuckles a bit, inhaling a shudder. of course it's words, it's helena.]
I dunno why I even asked~. [a little tease, a little playful, wrapped in the arms of someone who understands more than all but one person still living.] See, Keigo was taking pictures of all kinds of things they loved -- people and places and things like that -- and putting together a sort of scrapbook with them. They didn't wanna show anyone until they were done though, so I've gotta apologize for peeking when I can.
[because he couldn't resist, not when they'd become something keigo would do without thinking. when they'd simply see something they loved and wanted to remember it no matter how good their memory was already. to share it with others, that's what he thinks the purpose was. from someone who always thought before they spoke, before they acted, the moments keigo didn't remain fresh in subaru's mind as fond memories he wants to cherish forever.]
I wanna do that, too, but with everyone else. To show off their happiness, the things they love that make 'em laugh or toasty... and then I'll leave it for when Keigo comes back.
[there's a certainty to that -- when, not if -- and he thinks of mizuki, thinks of the deal, thinks of keigo's words. he hadn't wanted to, and yet it'd happened anyway;
the thought makes him whine in frustration again, wanting to hurt the ground and instead burying his face harder into his friend. he shouldn't be so mad talking about something so nice, but emotions will always be his weak point no matter who he is, no matter the life he's lived.]
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I dunno why I even asked~. [a little tease, a little playful, wrapped in the arms of someone who understands more than all but one person still living.] See, Keigo was taking pictures of all kinds of things they loved -- people and places and things like that -- and putting together a sort of scrapbook with them. They didn't wanna show anyone until they were done though, so I've gotta apologize for peeking when I can.
[because he couldn't resist, not when they'd become something keigo would do without thinking. when they'd simply see something they loved and wanted to remember it no matter how good their memory was already. to share it with others, that's what he thinks the purpose was. from someone who always thought before they spoke, before they acted, the moments keigo didn't remain fresh in subaru's mind as fond memories he wants to cherish forever.]
I wanna do that, too, but with everyone else. To show off their happiness, the things they love that make 'em laugh or toasty... and then I'll leave it for when Keigo comes back.
[there's a certainty to that -- when, not if -- and he thinks of mizuki, thinks of the deal, thinks of keigo's words. he hadn't wanted to, and yet it'd happened anyway;
the thought makes him whine in frustration again, wanting to hurt the ground and instead burying his face harder into his friend. he shouldn't be so mad talking about something so nice, but emotions will always be his weak point no matter who he is, no matter the life he's lived.]