[he breathes out a sigh of relief, as if there was ever any doubt that helena would share it with him if he'd only asked -- a "good enough" reason or not, she would have, he knows this and yet,

it felt a little silly to him, when he had other ways to connect to her.]

Of course! I dunno if they'll get mad at me reading it or not, but I'll ask for forgiveness over permission this time. It's something they worked on, so I wanna be able to talk to them about it... just like the scrapbook they started on.

[except subaru's intending to finish it for them if it's the only thing he does this month, if it's the only thing he leaves behind... he doesn't know what graduation holds, if he can even go back to whatever life he traded off that natsume was so burned by, but he'll finish it regardless.]