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[it sounds the same as natsume's survival oath, how he'd continue to live no matter what, and subaru wonders if there's anything he'd give up pieces of himself for in that way. maybe keigo, with their secret. but is it really worth "any means necessary" to get what you want...? is it really worth hurting yourself or others, just for a chance at something you believe so much in?

does it make someone's belief any less if they don't go to that end?]

Even if it meant you weren't you in the end?

I'd still be me.

( he doesn't have a shred of doubt in the matter — because if he was still pursuing it, it would mean that he remembered, and that he cared. it would mean that he still knew what was important to him, no matter what. he might be a different him, and maybe subaru would disagree with that, but to amami... even that would have been better than the way things ended up. )

Kinda depressing to think about though, not like I can do much about it now...

( he's dead. even if he reincarnated, he'd forget. if he returned, he'd die again. there's no good end out there waiting for him.

...

a long sigh fills the air, and he glances back to subaru with the return of a well-practiced smile to cover his features. )

Why don't we talk about something else?

[just the same answer as natsume...

why are all of his friends like this... it's like, reassuring, but... wow... he has a type...

those are the sort of thoughts running through his mind as he watches amami, noting how the far off look drops off into something subaru's familiar with himself, and even if he wanted to press more there's not much else to press; what's done is done, whatever that may be, and all one can do is support the people who've made their choice. be their eyes, or their escape. just because something's been decided doesn't mean it's forever.]

Sure. You pick.

[he wants to see what amami comes up with]

( oh, good. that plastered-on smile relaxes a bit, and he'll give the question some thought.

not too much, mind you, since it's not actually so difficult to come up with an answer. )

How about you. We're friends now, right? Though I don't feel like I know too much about you yet.

( or anybody here, really; all together only by circumstance, all working for survival, and while he gets that tough situations can build trust, it's kind of nice to learn about the people by your side. )

[oh, him... subaru grins easily, pulling himself up onto the edge of the pool so it's just his legs.]

Let's see~. Subaru Akehoshi, member of Trickstar and class 3-B. Blood type O, birthday June 22nd, I've got a mom and a shiba inu named Daikichi, I love collecting shiny things... I play basketball, and I'm in the Music and Astronomy Clubs. The latter's got a longer name, but I'll keep it short for intros. ☆ What else do you wanna know?

Family? Hobbies? What do you like to do to pass the time, what sort of things are you into — outside of clubs, I mean.

( you know, like all that small talk that gets skipped when you're in situations that are as heavy as they are here. )

It'd be nice to talk about something normal once in a while...

I always talk about normal things, Ama-chan... But being put on the spot's something else. I don't have a lot of experience with that yet.

[interviews and stuff... mmmm.]

I like singing, too... and stargazing, even outside of club. Window-shopping, playing video games, watching movies... Older stuff on the last two. Uh, I cook sometimes, mostly just homey foods though -- nothing fancy.

[what else... small talk is fine, he can do small talk... he's really trying to think of stuff for you, amami]

( it's only as on the spot as subaru makes it — amami doesn't think "something that isn't my failures" is a high bar to make here, so he'll easily latch on to one of the first subjects subaru offers up. )

Oh, you like the classics, huh. Any favourites? Kamo-kun and I, we borrow the TV sometimes for movies, so it'd be good to get some recs that are actually around these days.

( nothing wrong with older movies or games, mind you, but the options around here are limited enough that he's not so sure what might be available — sounds like subaru might have a better idea of that. )

Oh, there's plenty! ET was my mom's favorite, so I watched it a lot... Then there's Jurassic Park, Star Wars, Grease, and Sixth Sense was good for a horror flick, but I dunno if that'd be a good thing to watch together~.

[... well, subaru'd like to watch it with keigo... to be clung to... so cute...]

If you don't mind something more animated, Laputa's a really good movie. I dunno what sorta stuff you get on the channels here though, but pretty much anything around this time's a hit. The golden age of cinema!

[or something like that... regardless, it seems subaru really does enjoy movies. it's why he was so enthralled and excited to watch the hamster space movies nene brought for the sleepover. a little normalcy, a little piece of home in a way.]

Oh, those sound pretty good — thanks Akehoshi-kun. I'll make a list and see if we can't get some.

( they seem like pretty good watches? well, he'd have to ask if kamo-kun feels brave enough for anything horror, but it's still worth asking at least. )

Maybe I can pass them over to you after, since you seem pretty fond of 'em. We could even have another dorm movie night if everyone was up for it.

( kamo-kun seemed to have fun with the last one. yes, every thought has to come back to kamo-kun. it's just the way he's wired, okay... )

[!!!!!!!!!!]

I'd love that! And I think everyone else would too, it was suuuuper fun last time...

[keigo had fun too, with that genuinely happy smile of theirs... subaru wants to see it again, surrounded by others, so that sounds nice. maybe they won't need to safety net of being a shopkeeper next time, and can simply enjoy being themselves.]

We should see if we can get like, a popcorn machine or something~. I wanna eat it out the glass!

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