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[so subaru knows that amami hasn't been in class, and given who the victims were... it's understandable. he wouldn't be able to attend class if anything happened to the people he treasures either, but

they have to get to the end of the year. they have to have the chance at graduation, whether good or bad in the end. because whether or not they do... it's something subaru puts from his mind for now, their class homework in hand, because amami is the person he's gonna focus on, even if it's just "being there" in the same room. loneliness is a hell of a drug.

so he looks around. peeks into sun 1, checks the art club, runs around a bit more before giving up and figuring he'll just catch amami later, heading to the pool for a soak like he's been doing to keep his mind off of things. low and behold there amami is too, though, doing whatever you want him to be doing, and subaru'll call out to him--]

Ama-cha~n! I've been lookin' high and low for you!

( hi. have subaru give amami his gift )

[guess who's up before the boys so she can put something by Subaru's pillow? it's Helena.

she's left for him a carved shiba inu, made of wood despite my image link- starry ribbon around its neck and the rest of the ribbon in its spool underneath like a little stand. the ribbon is his to use as he pleases, and she's told the stars glimmer.]

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Across from star one, Subaru will see that his own stocking is hanging on the handle of star four with his name written in the white, if he dares to peek inside, he'll find...

[It's a bit late but in universe it's perfectly on time! Subaru's Christmas present is a suncatcher, found hanging on the inside doorknob of Star 1 with a sticky note denoting it as his.]

[day four of doing clocktower stuff.

i forgot they were gonna put letters into the dead drop spot but we can say they're supposed to be working on some as per komaeda's orders. anyway subaru's sitting a little ways away, quiet and light dim the way it's been the past few days since coming into void school, but he hasn't been open to talking about it whatsoever. avoiding the topic, straight up walking away, pretty much anything outside of sitting down and pouring it out to someone.

...

it's been simmering, though, and while subaru's drawing a dog he'll ask in the most nonchalant, casual tone, as if it's not a big deal or anything whatsoever--]

Do you think Keigo hates me?

[how he's gonna repeat this convo with someone post void]

( outside of the dorms, specifically; natsume's practicing lights in the dark again, a spray of constellations closer to human hands than normal. since the 12th, subaru's seemed unsure of how to approach him, talk to him, and that's... annoying. more annoying because he has a lot of unsettled feelings as is, but focusing on magic is nice, easy, okay, until he hears subaru's voice from the door.

the stars stay, at least. he's been working on it for a little less than a month now. )

Did you bring me something to eat TOO?

( he asks without turning around, voice dry and small. helena did the same thing earlier; he wouldn't be surprised if subaru had either picked up on the fact eating wasn't high on natsume's priority list or if helena had mentioned to make sure he had something tonight, too. )

[by all reasonable logic, subaru should be able to call through amami and keigo's door like normal and get keigo on request,

which is why he isn't gonna today, despite all signs saying he should (as it is a sunday), but he doesn't know it yet. no knocking we yell through doors like men!!!]

Boss~! [a beat, then more affectionately -- as always, subaru's made sure no one's around before:] Kei~go! ♪ Let's go out! ☆

[subaru's gonna open the door in the morning at the same time komaeda does and instead of anything normal or closing it he's darting closer to grab the other's

prosthetic arm yeah that's safer, a determined grin on his face.]

Let's skip class.

...

So what does to you, Amami? If it's not others' opinions, or feelings, or anything like that -- what'll keep your feet stuck in the ground instead of runnin' away all the time?

[subaru doesn't know how long it's been since he took keigo's light body and rested them in the arms of someone who could take care of them better, who could take the seemingly sleeping teen and give due, proper respects--

he has some ideas, of at least why it happened, and he gives a shuddering, angry inhale as he sits on the ground of star 1, bunk bed and natsume long gone, just another loss in a growing list. subaru's never felt such pain before, and he wonders if maybe that's why it aches all the more to see such an empty room, the only suncatcher left one natsume had held hang outside on the skylight to catch the wind and rays.

...

it seems so distant now, like a star, like keigo, and he pounds at the ground with his fist, cursing with each hit. this is the scene helena comes in on, finally, book in her arms: the frustrated, wavering whines of someone who's had the rug pulled out from under him, a choked curse with every thud of his hand against the center of the room, and maybe it's a blessing to be blind, because the sight of his hunched, shaking shoulders might just have been too much to bear.]

[apart from wishing him happy birthday when they woke and hugging him tight, Helena had asked that he please not come back to the dorms that day until she told him to - it'd ruin the surprise! but in the afternoon, after classes, he'll get a message that he can return now.

in their room, she's set up a plate with an orange roll cake for him - the citrus is in the cake, but the filling is vanilla and sweet. it tastes like summer, and it's all for him.

and there's a card too that she made with help, proclaiming it to be one IOU for a day where she'll agree to anything he wants to do. a whole 24 hours!

it might not be a loud and bright party, but there's no way she'd forget.]

10/idk before the 7th. if it's 6th he can see subaru's bruises

12/23? ish

12/25

12/25 — door handle

12/25

01/04

01/15, night